Category Archives: Writing

A New Relationship with Writing

Wow, what a winter break of revisions it’s been! I am proud to say I mostly stuck to the plan I made in December. Starting with an idea of what changes I wanted to make to a story helped keep me from getting (too) overwhelmed when I sat down to work–and I did sit down to work. Almost every day, sometimes for 5 minutes, sometimes for more than an hour. As a result, I’ve revised 6 of the 7 stories I plan to include in The Book and am considering adding an eighth to the collection, if I can get it done in time.

I’ve also been thinking about the fact that, more than in any other semester, this year’s break has been a sign for what Life After School might be like, writing on my own momentum, fueled by my own desire to put out the best stories I can. It’s changed my mind about my goals for writing this year.

It’s always mystified me to hear people talk of a deep “need” to write, as though their sanity hinges on it. You know that stereotypical artist’s parent who’s contemptuous of the child for not having a “real” career? That’s been me. I don’t like to admit writing can be fun, even when I do it in my spare time, even after I have a good session and my story’s all I can talk about for the next hour. It’s starting to seem ridiculous to keep this grudge against what I do around.

This year, instead of resolving to write every day, churn out a set number of stories, hit time or word goals, or meet similar numerical quotas, I want to accomplish something I imagine will be more rewarding and lasting: I want to take my relationship with writing to the next level. I pledge to do my best to remember that writing is fun and fulfilling, and to approach my laptop at the end of the day with a welcoming spirit. I promise to use quantifiable goals and quotas as tools to encourage me to write, not an end in and of themselves. Most importantly, I promise to keep going after my grad program is over, even if no one’s reading. Sooner or later, if I put joy and work into it, someone will.

The Book, Step 1: Tackling a Revision Plan

The semester is over! Hooray! And it ended on a high note: my professor left me the most positive review yet of my last story. I’m feeling bold enough to consider submitting it for publication once I put in a few more edits. It’s nice to end the semester with a dash of bravery.

What makes the jolt of self-confidence particularly welcome is that this winter break I will be preparing my manuscript. This past semester gave me a much stronger feeling for what people notice most in my writing and what I might like to highlight, but I’m looking at at least one more pass on every story I’ve lined up. I don’t want the break to slip away from me, so here is my Revision Plan, a guide to help me make the most of my time and relax over the holidays, too:

how i write

  1. Count stories. Count days/weeks. Plan accordingly. Know when to move on to a new story that needs attention instead of picking endlessly at one.
  2. Start by identifying the issues. Note the most common critiques or the areas I see as most in need of revision to avoid wasting time wondering where to start.
  3. Focus on the big stuff first. Minor language edits are easy enough to sneak in at the last minute than character development, a shift in pacing, new dialogue, or even additional scenes.
  4. Spread work out over multiple sessions. I usually get more done in three 30-minute sessions than one 90-minute slog. It helps me to think about the story and come to a more creative solution to a problem during my “off” time and keeps me feeling more focused and relaxed while I’m in front of the screen.
  5. Put in as many days as possible. Ten minutes spent fixing a paragraph means now I have a fixed paragraph. It’s still worth it.
  6. Keep a positive outlook. However tough this project is, I’m working toward my first book, and that’s something to celebrate! Just try to save most of the congratulatory wine sipping for after the night’s editing is done…

Seeing the Light

I registered for my last grad school class! There are only 3 class sessions left in this semester, and then one semester’s worth of design, editing, and production, and then (knock wood) I’ll burst out the other side of school into a world where I have my degree and all my evenings to myself. Not to mention that I’ll be a published author.

One of the things that excited me most about the program I chose for my MFA was that instead of amassing a manuscript for my thesis, I’ll get to go through the whole process of designing and publishing my work, with instructors and peers there to mentor and support me through the process. It’s an incredible thought after the 8 years I’ve spent studying and practicing writing, and despite my professor’s advice to the contrary, I haven’t been able to help daydreaming about the content, organization, and cover design for my first leap into the shelves.

It doesn’t feel quite real yet. I imagine it won’t until January, after I’ve revised this semester’s work and put together my rough manuscript (once I hold that in my hands I know something is going to click!). But the first rosy glimmers of “this is real” and “I’m going to be done” have arrived. I’m starting to feel more excited than nervous about what the next 6 months will bring.

Reading Dead Writers

I just finished Micro, a novel “by” Michael Crichton. I use the word “by” a little loosely because Crichton died while writing it, and the book was completed by another writer. It was still okay, but it missed some sharpness. There were summarized passages that I felt sure would have been explored more vividly if Crichton had lived to revise. Reading that last book got me thinking about what happens to manuscripts when the writer has died.

Micro isn’t the first example of a book that was a work in progress (sometimes barely more than a few drafted chapters and some Word files full of notes) that was finished by another writer. I will admit it’s one of the few I’ve read, mostly because a few dips into posthumously completed novels, including some I really love (Douglas Adams comes to mind) has taught me that a lot of what I love in an author’s voice comes later in the revision process.

I’m a voice girl when it comes to reading. Plot and character matter, of course. The premise better be interesting to make it on my favorites list, and the ending should count. But I will forgive a lot of sins on the basis of a great narrative voice, and I’m quick to put down almost any story if I don’t care for the way it’s told. It’s hard to get voice right on a first draft–it’s the kind of plaster or molding (I don’t know enough about carpentry to keep this metaphor accurate–whoops!) that you can only worry about when the scaffolding of the story is in place.

These days, editors don’t have much time to do extensive developmental editing with writers before the book is published. This is in many ways an unfortunate thing–a good editor can help a book cross the last inch (or more!) from a workable manuscript to a masterpiece. But that’s another story for another day. The point is that I think the authors themselves, and their personal communities of hand-selected readers, are the ones shaping most books today. A publisher assigning someone else (hopefully also popular in the same genre, to attract sales and ease suspicious readers’ minds) just isn’t the same to me. The question, then, is should the work stop if the author is no longer alive?

I know there is a lot of important work that happens after the writer is done putting words on the page (I wouldn’t be working in publishing if I thought that wasn’t true!). I know there are agents and even some editors who still take a strong personal interest in a book. But although I can understand the fans’ desire for just one more book and the publishers’ for one last good sale from an author, the writer side of me feels an uncomfortable twinge imagining an unfinished book going out. There is no last chance to review the book, or change it. There’s more possibility for anyone to say “close enough” to a not-quite-polished page. We should be grateful we even have this much, right?

Not me. I want the last book I read by a beloved author to be a proper send-off, with all the qualities I love in the work that got me hooked in the first place. I’ll miss out on a glimpse at the new characters and ideas my favorite writers were creating at the end of their lives, but I want that wonderful voice in my head to stay the same.

Should death be the final deadline for an author’s work to get published, or is it better to find a way to publish what they’ve left behind? I’d love to hear your take.

First Month Results

In September, I made it to 727 out of my 1000 minutes writing/month goal. I didn’t meet my goal (this time), but here’s what I learned:

  1. Having a goal to push toward works for me, even if I don’t quite get there. I spent just over 12 hours writing last month, which came out to revisions on 3 stories and about 5 pages’ worth of drafting toward a new story.
  2. I like goals that let me daydream. Unlike word count goals, which ultimately only count the moments you’re typing, a time goal allowed me to acknowledge the thought I put into my writing and revising. The ticker keeps ticking while I think about the right way to express a thought.
  3. The flexibility was awesome. Some nights I did 10 minutes. One Sunday I hit 90. Overall, my average comes to a little over 20 minutes a day–not a bad start!
  4. 1000 seems to be the right goal for me to set. It’s clearly tough, but I can think of a few nights when I probably could have put in another 10 minutes or so, and a weekend day or two when I blew off writing to do other fun things. Next time, if I’m going on a day trip with Andrew, I’ll write in the car in 10-minute bursts.

I’m doing a modified goal this month–500 minutes–in light of the fact that the wedding and honeymoon eat up the latter half of my October. After that, I think I’ll keep shooting for 1000!

What Are Your Rules for Writers?

This week in class, we read Colson Whitehead’s smart and often hilarious advice on How to Write. Based on that, I put together my own list of rules. They’re personal, based on what works for me and the traps I struggle to avoid, but I wonder if some of them might be more broadly applicable as well:

  1. Resist the urge to summarize. Writing should move forward. Summaries, at least in my experience, all too often are safety cushions against a braver ending.
  2. Start with what you know. Fiction by definition wouldn’t exist without improvisation and exploration, but it’s equally essential to ground a story somewhere. Emotions are good starting points.
  3. Never show anyone your first draft.
  4. You know what, don’t even talk about the story until draft 3. It’s so fragile in the early stages. Volatile, too. Anything you say about the story may well be better than anything you’ve written down so far, and you won’t remember it later.
  5. Write the part of the story you’re excited about first, regardless of whether you’ve written it yet.
  6. Be flexible, both inside and outside of the story. Write Every Day only works until the first case of food poisoning. Make rules you can stick to, and don’t write drafts so rigid you can’t follow a better idea.
  7. Have fun with revising. Cutting a story up with scissors is a good way to quickly try out new scene arrangements and keep in touch with the fearless inner kindergartener at the same time.
  8. Write scenes that aren’t even supposed to be in the final version for the sake of getting to know the characters better.
  9. If it’s in because it makes you feel clever, it probably shouldn’t be in.
  10. Writing in any subgenre has the potential to be literature (here’s to you, spec fic).

What writer’s rules do you swear by?

Writing Update

It’s all about getting your butt in the chair, whichever way you cajole, trick, threaten, or bribe your way in, right? The first week and a half of the 1,000-minute goal is overall going well. Here’s what I’m learning so far:

  1. Time adds up. Whether it’s a 40-minute blast or four 10-minute nibbles throughout the evening broken up with dinner, Internet browsing, and writing bridal shower thank-you notes, I’m spending the same time writing. Mostly, it even seems I get about the same amount of writing done no matter how I split, which is key.
  2. Concentrating my efforts is good. So far this month, I’ve spent just over 5 1/2 hours writing, almost all of it focused on one story. I’ve been through the draft twice and there’s barely a paragraph I haven’t changed at least once. The result? When Andrew read the new version, his response was “I finally understand what’s going on with these characters!”
  3. Boredom is a tool. It’s easy to claim lack of inspiration as an excuse not to write. The truth is, every single time I’ve scrolled to a part of the story I disliked, put my hands in my lap, and waited, it was a matter of about 5 minutes before I thought of something I could do to make it better. Your brain wants to be entertained. I bet you a pile of dollars that if you set a timer for just about anything above 10-15 minutes, resolutely ignore the Internet, and stare at the blank page, your brain will have something to put there before the end of that time.

I will confess I’m slightly behind on my minutes goal at the moment, but what I’ve learned from NaNo is that there’s a point near the middle of large goals where the novelty wears off and a bit of sliding happens. The key is not taking a slide as a failure. There are plenty of opportunities to catch up, and given how productive this challenge has been so far, I’m determined to keep at this.

Making Time to Write: A New Approach to Quotas

I have an on-again, off-again relationship with a routine writing practice. I’m good in spurts–I’ve successfully reached the 50,000 word mark in three NaNoWriMo Novembers–but the rest of the year is a puzzle to me.

Many writers do well with daily word quotas, and for about 8 months during my senior year of college, I did, too: 500 words a day, every single day. I liked the predictability of it and the fact that I could feel it getting easier. The first day took something like two hours. Later on, I could knock out my words in under 30 minutes on a good day.

What went wrong was that I didn’t have a way to account for editing. I was obligated to produce those 500 words, but what if I was editing a scene? I might write a paragraph or so, change some words, but a large part of my editing involves playing with order, deleting, and doing exercises to probe into areas of the story I’m missing. An hour’s solid, productive editing might result in 200 actual words entered onto the page. I couldn’t find a good conversion for what 500 words of writing “equaled,” so I fell off the wagon.

I’ve also tried daily writing schedules–15 or 30 minutes a day, usually. I’d get up early in the morning or set aside some time in the evening, and for a few weeks it would go well, until I got sick or had a terrible day and skipped. I’m motivated by goals, you see, but I’m also very hard on myself when I don’t meet them. After midnight, those 15 minutes are gone forever and I have a permanent black mark on my record.

What I need, I am learning, is a goal to push toward that will also allow flexibility. My goal should account for my life: the fact that I have new-found weekend time after quitting my job at the church, but that all I want to do when I get home after class is relax. I’m strong and focused on Mondays, drained on Fridays. I need to break away from the idea that if I can just be disciplined enough, I can make every day feel the same.

What I’m trying this September is a monthly goal: 1000 minutes of writing. It comes out to an average of about 35 minutes a day, challenging but achievable, and I can use weekends to my advantage to gain time in case I need a breather. It’s not quite a daily goal, although if I know what’s good for me I’ll be butt-in-chair at least 6 days a week! I’m currently at 118 minutes, and I’ve been excited to see how much gets done in each session. It’s been nice to be able to choose a 40-minute power stretch or 15-minute bursts separated by lunch with Andrew or a long walk.

Of course, I’ve learned over the years that writing goals and needs change, sometimes unexpectedly, and that part of learning to write consistently is learning when to fight the impulse to do something else and when to listen and adapt. For those who are struggling with a consistent daily routine or word-count quota, I’d recommend trying out a weekly or monthly goal instead.

On Graduating and Chasing Chipmunks

This week, my fiance and my sister graduated back-to-back, earning a Masters and two Bachelors degrees, respectively. Clearly, I am incredibly fortunate to be part of a family that kicks academic butt. I am so proud of them.

One moment in the speaker’s address for the Masters commencement caught my attention. He was praising the graduates for their innovation and perseverance, and urging them to dream as big as possible, and he said, “Do you know why a lion doesn’t chase chipmunks? He knows if he does, he’ll starve to death.”

My first reaction was wow, that makes a lot of sense. Pouring my time and energy into busywork is a great way to burn myself out without accomplishing anything I’m proud of or receiving a sustainable reward. It’s the reason I don’t write $5 content mill articles. It’s also the reason I tend to let the apartment get messy when I’m working on a midterm project or trying to finish NaNo–having a clutter-free coffee table is nowhere near as important as polishing my short story.

But then I started thinking about a conversation I recently had with my supervisor, Teresa. She told me the story of a freelancer we work with–the freelancer timed her switch from a 9-5 to freelance life poorly, leaving her company when another member of her team was on maternity leave so that the company ended up feeling forced into a corner to work with her freelance  because they didn’t have the in-house resources to cover her work while they found someone new. The freelancer also apparently asked to be paid a steep hourly rate–nearly twice what Teresa’s encountered other, more experienced freelancers charging. Her company cut her off as soon as they could. Our company still works with her, so I guess that’s a sign that being a little pushy can get you what you need, but she comes off as greedy and a little underhanded in how she went after her goal.

Working for goals too small can kill your spirit.

Setting your goals too high can cross the line from assertiveness into entitlement, or can leave you with nothing at all.

I’m only 3 years postgrad myself, so I am still figuring things out. It occurs to me, though, that although the lion will die if he only eats tiny chipmunks, he won’t be any better off only trying to catch the strongest, fastest antelope. And in fact, by claiming the older or weaker animals, the lion not only satisfies his hunger without working to exhaustion, but strengthens the herd.

So my advice this year for graduates is this: Know what kind of animal you are. Know what you need to fuel your goals and do not underestimate or cheat yourself from going for what inspires you. But don’t undervalue the ones around you, either. Creativity, passion, drive, and innovation reach far enough to benefit more than one.

Who’s Your Ideal Reader?

In International Fiction this week, we’ve been reading a (tiny) sample of Russian writing, including Nabokov’s wonderful essay, ”Good Readers and Good Writers.” One of the class writing prompts was to take a page from Nabokov and consider who our ideal reader would be. It’s an eye-opening exercise that I would recommend to any writer. I realized I had a more specific experience in mind than I thought I did when I daydream/hope about how someone will feel reading my work. My thoughts are below. Tell me about your imagined reader in the comments!

My ideal reader, first and foremost, would have to be fascinated by people. This is partly just on the surface level: As a writer, I am primarily interested in people and relationships, and details like place and appearances get filled in later, if at all. Even plot is more or less a peripheral element for me; it’s a vehicle to bring people into the situation where they will reveal themselves. If my reader isn’t interested in people, he or she isn’t going to be my reader for very long.

My reader, as a person, would be sensitive and imaginative and would see reading as a collaborative exercise. I have a hard time right now gauging how overt or subtle my stories are, but I value subtlety. I like subtext. I like writing a conversation where you can hear the echo of another conversation underneath in what isn’t being said, and it takes a sensitive writer and reader to know how to approach such a conversation so that those echoes materialize. I like to explore gestures. I don’t often tell as much as I maybe should about my characters’ clothing or hair or eye color, but I like my reader to know how they move, because I think body language is the easiest way to read someone’s mind. Maybe that’s because I am a fidgeter with a wide range of tics. My reader would have the sustained imagination to see my character in movement throughout the story, and the sensitivity to see the shifts of emotion in the changes in gesture and the cues in conversation. I would want my reader to temporarily become my characters (rather than relate to them), which is why it would be important for my reader to have a spirit of collaboration. It would ideally be almost like an actor doing a study of a character he or she was going to play, getting rid of his or her innate patterns and taking on a new persona to understand a life through a different lens.

The other reason I want my reader to love people is that I want him or her to be so consumed that “person-ness” goes beyond humanity. I want my reader to leave my writing thinking of my story as a kind of person. I don’t mean thinking of the characters as “real,” although that is an element of what I’m envisioning. I think a really good, well-written story ends up having a mood and an idea and a manner of expression that blend together and form a personality. That is why I reread books I love, and why I would want readers to come back to my stories: the story itself becomes someone you want to spend time with. I sometimes pick up particular books when I’m troubled about something, not because the content or plot has a lesson I need, or the book features a character going through my problem, but because the whole story itself has a personality of probing, curiosity, reproach, authority, encouragement, or inspiration that touches something in me.

Ray Bradbury wrote in Zen and the Art of Writing that you should read poetry every day even if you don’t understand it on any level you recognize, because your ganglion will understand. Sometimes when I am in those troubled moods I will read on autopilot and end up talking out loud to the book, saying, “yes, I know what you mean,” or, “but how do I get there?” and it’s because my ganglion is in conversation with the personality of this particular book.

When I was little, I called certain favorite books of mine “oatmeal books.” They weren’t about oatmeal, and didn’t necessarily share a theme or style, or any other characteristic other than the emotional response they brought out in me. I absolutely could not articulate what I meant by that when I was a kid, and it’s hard even now, although in my head I know precisely what I mean. The closest I can get is to compare it to that moment of resonance other people have described, of the thrum of finding a story that works so well that it makes you feel like an extension of it. As a child, I probably picked the word “oatmeal” thinking intuitively of something with warmth and weight, but it also had an element of the inevitable and necessary. When it was a winter morning, you were fundamentally entitled to a bowl of hot oatmeal, as a human being. When I hit that certain reading mood, I would have ripped the house apart to find one of my oatmeal books. I craved this kind of reading experience as intently as any physical need, and when I had it, I was enveloped in a state of complete peace and comfort, even if the book was sad, because I had connected with the exact right book. The ideal, of course, would be to create something like that.